One is the loneliest number...

I have found in some ways that being different equates to moments of loneliness.  Especially in the kink community I find our identity or roles sometimes delineates are acceptable interactions.  As a non submissive female, it is like the female energy is negated by not being on the same side of the flogger.  Aside from friends that I had before the transition to top land, I feel like I have suddenly become a 'them' to the majority of women in the community.  It is funny that now that I am coming into my own as a femme I feel isolated from women who don't understand the queer identity.  I found myself with a group of women the other day, but among them I was the only dominant.  I might as well have been from a different planet.  I 

So as a Daddy Domme, I also feel like I have to be 110% on all the time.  It is hard enough to be a female domme, but to self identify as Daddy means I have enveloped the male title and energy...I feel like because of the grossly misplaced double standard for gender especially in a dominant role, any slip up or sign of femininity is seen as a submissive trait or at the least 'less dominant'.  So I can be in a group full of dominants and feel so shut off from everyone.  

Sigh...it is funny.  For the first time I feel completely at home in my own skin.  I love who I have become and who I have surrounded myself with.  But outside of my small group, I feel like I have to stay aloof and somewhat standoffish in order to maintain my image, if that is in fact what I want to do.

I guess I just feel like the more I embrace my identity, the more lonely social situations become.  And that is just not me on the whole.

Who will approach me

Standing alone in a crowd

Love this Femme Daddy

Cheers,

Daddy Rose